085 – Fri, Feb 2, 2018, 10:09 PM

Waves on Lake Tahoe, California (Miranda Hernandez)
Waves on Lake Tahoe, California (Miranda Hernandez)

I’ve been taking this course in writing about my grief. I let it take me away from writing to you. They say grief comes in waves, and today I am drowning.

It’s not right, none of this is fair. I miss you. I miss you, and words just don’t cover it. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you.

If grief were a gesture, it would be hands on my heart, one flat on the other like bad CPR. My heart is still beating, I don’t need this rescue. My soul needs it though. Every part of me needs you.

Sometimes, when I’m very still, I still feel you kicking.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

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