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Sat, May 6, 2017 at 6:51 PM

It’s been a hard week, little one. I debated telling you this, but I think you deserve to hear the bad as well as the good. Life is a balancing act, and I want you to know I will always be there to help you through any hardship.

I found out this week that an old coworker of mine died by suicide while at work with the California Highway Patrol. We weren’t close, and I don’t know why it happened, but it’s been a sad week for everyone who knew him. I know we all wonder if there was something we could have done to reach him earlier, to let him know he wasn’t alone. You, my love, will never be alone. I love you so much!

The second thing that happened this week was also hard to bear. My cousin Caleb* lost his baby, Ava Rayne, at just 10 weeks old. We don’t know what happened with her either, and I feel very sad because Caleb and I were never close. I want to change that. I want him to know that I am here, and I want us all to stay in contact and be a family. I want this for you.

This week was hard, but it put some things into perspective for me. I’m going to meet you soon, and our lives are about to change in the most wonderful way. I promise to tell you every day that I love you, and I’m here for you, and you are so very special to me. I hope you in turn know that you can trust me, and know that I will always work for what is best for you and our family. You are the very best part of my world.

I love you.

~
* Names have been changed to protect privacy.

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Tree and roots on the Haruru Falls trail, Waitanga, New Zealand (Miranda Hernandez)

122 – Tue, Jul 24, 2018, 9:28 PM

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063 – Sun, Nov 26, 2017, 9:45 AM

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025 – Sun, Aug 6, 2017 at 12:26 AM

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048 – Sat, Oct 21, 2017, 8:37 PM

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138 – Thu, Feb 6, 2020, 11:39 AM

Sunset on the California coast (Miranda Hernandez)

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128 – Thu, May 23, 2019, 9:11 PM

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028 – Wed, Aug 16, 2017 at 6:07 PM

Miranda and Adrian's Elephant at Pinecrest Lake

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059 – Wed, Nov 15, 2017, 7:52 PM

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014 – Thu, Jun 29, 2017 at 6:53 PM

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053 – Sun, Nov 5, 2017, 1:07 PM

026 – Sun, Aug 13, 2017 at 6:17 AM

004 – 12w1d – Your Tiny Feet

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072 – Sat, Dec 30, 2017, 10:51 AM

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060 – Fri, Nov 17, 2017, 8:02 PM

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125 – Fri, Oct 19, 2018, 1:08 PM

Miranda and Adrian's Elephant

104 – Sun, May 13, 2018, 3:04 PM

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022 – Fri, Jul 21, 2017 at 12:18 AM

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037 – Tue, Sep 26, 2017 at 3:02 PM

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124 – Tue, Sep 4, 2018, 9:00 PM

California coast (Miranda Hernandez)

088 – Thu, Feb 15, 2018, 6:40 PM

Sunrise over the Pacific Ocean 2 - Feature

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Miranda's maternity photo (Modern Lux Photography)

067 – Tue, Dec 12, 2017, 9:42 PM

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108 – Sat, May 26, 2018, 11:02 AM

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121 – Mon, Jul 23, 2018, 9:04 PM

Flowers on a fallen tree limb, California (Miranda Hernandez)

054 – Mon, Nov 7, 2017, 8:10 PM

031 – Fri, Sep 8, 2017 at 12:16 AM

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085 – Fri, Feb 2, 2018, 10:09 PM

Miranda and Adrian's Elephant

100 – Sat, May 5, 2018, 5:30 PM

033 – Tue, Sep 19, 2017 at 6:35 PM

Pinecrest Lake, Pinecrest, California (Miranda Hernandez)

070 – Sat, Dec 23, 2017, 9:12 PM

Nasturtium flowers in Big Sur, California (Miranda Hernandez)

112 – Sat, Jun 16, 2018, 3:59 PM

Miranda and Adrian's Elephant on the California coast (Synch Media)

074 – Sun, Dec 31, 2017, 7:59 PM

Esquimalt Lagoon, Victoria, British Columbia, Canada (Miranda Hernandez)

034 – Mon, Sep 25, 2017 at 8:28 PM

Adrian's Elephant at Adrian and Miranda's old house

050 – Sun, Oct 29, 2017, 1:00 PM

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041 – Sat, Sep 30, 2017 at 8:30 PM

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115 – Sat, Jun 30, 2018, 1:03 AM

002 – 7w3d – Pickles and ice cream?

Winter in Chicago, Illinois (Miranda Hernandez)

096 – Tue, Apr 24, 2018, 11:09 PM

Adrian's Elephant and his photo at St Katharines's Parmoor, Buckinghamshire, England (Miranda Hernandez)

126 – Fri, Mar 29, 2019, 9:39 AM

005 – 19w6d – Happy New Year

Hiking in Pinecrest, California (Miranda Hernandez)

071 – Mon, Dec 25, 2017, 6:45 PM

032 – Mon, Sep 18, 2017 at 9:24 PM

Anini Beach, Kaua'i, Hawai'i (Miranda Hernandez)

093 – Wed, Mar 21, 2018, 4:18 PM

Bike path in California (Miranda Hernandez)

098 – Thu, Apr 29, 2018, 8:58 PM

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127 – Thu, May 2, 2019, 12:03 PM

Sunset over Victoria - Feature

023 – Fri, Jul 28, 2017 at 5:18 PM

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038 – Thu, Sep 28, 2017 at 9:36 AM

007 – 29w6d – Cravings and a Nest

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114 – Sun, Jun 24, 2018, 1:15 PM

Rocks on the California Coast (Miranda Hernandez)

049 – Tue, Oct 24, 2017, 5:26 PM

Koloa, Kaua'i, Hawai'i (Miranda Hernandez)

092 – Tue, Mar 20, 2018, 2:26 PM

Snow in Chicago, Illinois (Miranda Hernandez)

101 – Sun, May 6, 2018, 12:13 AM

Bench on the California coast (Miranda Hernandez)

078 – Mon, Jan 15, 2018, 11:32 AM

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118 – Fri, Jul 6, 2018, 7:43 PM

Winter in Chicago, Illinois (Miranda Hernandez)

097 – Wed, Apr 28, 2018, 11:08 PM

013 – Thu, Jun 29, 2017 at 10:22 AM

Shore of Lake Michigan, Chicago (Miranda Hernandez)

095 – Fri, Apr 13, 2018, 10:23 PM

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132 – Mon, Jul 1, 2019, 9:45 PM

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051 – Tue, Oct 31, 2017, 5:32 PM

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120 – Thu, Jul 19, 2018, 12:47 PM

Miranda and Adrian's Elephant on the California coast (photo used with permission)

075 – Tue, Jan 9, 2018, 10:04 PM

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080 – Sat, Jan 20, 2018, 4:09 PM

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056 – Fri, Nov 10, 2017, 8:29 PM

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130 – Thu, Jun 27, 2019, 9:31 PM

Wildflowers in Victoria, British Columbia, Canada (Miranda Hernandez)

036 – Tue, Sep 26, 2017 at 1:59 PM

Wildflowers in Big Sur, California (Miranda Hernandez)

090 – Sat, Feb 24, 2018, 5:12 AM

Vines, Kaua'i, Hawai'i (Miranda Hernandez)

047 – Thu, Oct 19, 2017, 4:54 PM

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045 – Fri, Oct 13, 2017, 6:25 PM

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107 – Sat, May 19, 2018, 2:02 PM

Sunset on the California coast (Miranda Hernandez)

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California coast (Miranda Hernandez)

082 – Wed, Jan 24, 2018, 3:46 PM

Bridge in California (Miranda Hernandez)

102 – Fri, May 11, 2018, 11:56 AM

Stream, North Lake Tahoe, California (Miranda Hernandez)

046 – Sun, Oct 15, 2017, 8:09 PM

024 – Wed, Aug 2, 2017 at 6:13 PM

Miranda and Adrian's Elephant (Miranda Hernandez)

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Keālia Beach, Kaua'i, Hawai'I (Miranda Hernandez)

039 – Thu, Sep 28, 2017 at 4:16 PM

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113 – Sun, Jun 24, 2018, 1:02 AM

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Adrian's Elephant

065 – Sat, Dec 2, 2017, 8:06 PM

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105 – Mon, May 14, 2018, 9:33 PM

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099 – Wed, May 2, 2018, 7:46 PM

Garden art in San Juan Capistrano, California (Miranda Hernandez)

109 – Sun, May 27, 2018, 8:35 PM

019 – Sun, Jul 16, 2017 at 12:17 PM

030 – Mon, Aug 28, 2017 at 6:21 AM

001 – Hello

Succulents in San Juan Capistrano, California (Miranda Hernandez)

086 – Tue, Feb 6, 2018, 3:52 PM

Street art in Victoria, British Columbia (Miranda Hernandez)

094 – Fri, Apr 6, 2018, 11:46 PM

California coast in Big Sur, California (Miranda Hernandez)

110 – Sun, Jun 3, 2018, 9:11 AM

Miranda and Adrian's Elephant on the California coast (Miranda Hernandez)

068 – Sat, Dec 16, 2017, 9:55 PM

Sunset in California (Miranda Hernandez)

073 – Sun, Dec 31, 2017, 5:10 PM

Pier, Paihia, New Zealand (Miranda Hernandez)

042 – Mon, Oct 2, 2017, 6:14 PM

029 – Tue, Aug 22, 2017 at 9:50 PM

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044 – Thu, Oct 12, 2017, 6:52 PM

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119 – Wed, Jul 18, 2018, 1:10 PM

020 – Tue, Jul 18, 2017 at 2:29 PM

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043 – Wed, Oct 4, 2017, 7:43 PM

Periwinkle in Victoria, British Columbia (Miranda Hernandez)

103 – Sat, May 12, 2018, 5:32 PM

012 – 39w6d(2) – So close!

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058 – Tue, Nov 14, 2017, 7:10 PM

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137 – Tue, Dec 31, 2019, 10:01 PM

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139 – A Letter to My Son on His Third Birthday

003 – 10w2d – A Little Bit of a Belly

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066 – Mon, Dec 11, 2017, 8:16 PM

Miranda and Elephant on the California coast

117 – A Letter to My Son on His First Birthday

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135 – Wed, Aug 28, 2019, 8:04 AM

Adrian James 3 - Feaure

016 – Wed, Jul 5, 2017 at 6:58 AM

008 – 31w6d – One Last Road Trip

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087 – Wed, Feb 7, 2018, 4:16 PM

Close up of yellow rose in full bloom on a sunny day in California (Miranda Hernandez)

021 – Thu, Jul 20, 2017 at 6:24 AM

Adrian's Elephant and Romeo

064 – Wed, Nov 29, 2017, 4:36 PM

Dark and moody sunset over the ocean in Kaua'i, Hawai'i (Miranda Hernandez)

027 – Mon, Aug 14, 2017 at 12:15 PM

Wild Sunflower in Victoria, British Columbia (Miranda Hernandez)

035 – Tue, Sep 26, 2017 at 11:09 AM

Flowers in Assiniboine Park, Winnipeg, Manitoba (Miranda Hernandez)

133 – Wed, Jul 3, 2019, 11:32 AM

Keālia Beach, Kaua’i, Hawai’i (Miranda Hernandez)

106 – Fri, May 18, 2018, 6:18 PM

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