26 Mar 2019 – The Worst Thing that Never Happened

Miranda Hernandez
March 26, 2019

This is quite possibly the darkest thing I’ve ever written, but sometimes when we fear something, we have to make peace with the possibilities before we release that fear.

Please note that the following screenshots are simulated tweets, created in a simulator online. This is the timeline of one of my worst possible nightmares. It’s also an event that never happened.

The Timeline of an Event That Never Occurred

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