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7 Feb 2018 – Tests

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My new doctor is listening, and he’s sending me for tests.

And I’m starting to feel like I have the beginnings of liver failure, and nobody has caught it, and I’m holding on to so much anger.

So many people run away from my questions, but I still have questions, I deserve more than this.

My son should be living, this is not enough.

I will never back down. I will never forget.

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