Someone asked if I was “better” today. I don’t think she meant it to be hurtful, but I can’t fathom what she means. Better than yesterday? — Sometimes. Better than before? — Define “before”. Am I feeling better? Doing better? Hiding my pain better? In a better place in my life than before I lost my son? How in the world could I ever be “better”? I’m just different now. I’m just here. Better has no meaning.
042 – Mon, Oct 2, 2017, 6:14 PM
Letters to Adrian are real letters from a mother to her stillborn child. Letters are shared here in periodic batches.