Peanut has been getting her first tooth, and she doesn’t sleep, and y’all I’m tired! I’m a single parent, and this is hard, and I think it’s okay to admit that. Parenting, even parenting after loss, isn’t just sunshine and roses. It’s reality too. And I love this little girl with every piece of my soul, and I feel overwhelmed sometimes.
And I think sometimes that there is this romanticization of what life might have been like if our children had lived, and I think that’s unfair. Because every child is going to be teething, and if not lack of sleep, every parent is going to struggle with something. This is just how parenting goes. It doesn’t mean we aren’t thankful. It doesn’t mean we’ve lost sight of what’s important in having our children here.
I don’t really have a point in posting this. I was just up early this morning and I am especially cranky. Cranky and thankful, and I think that’s okay.