6 Feb 2018 – Regret

Miranda Hernandez
February 6, 2018

Your donor has brown eyes. So do I. I still wonder if yours would have been green or violet or newborn baby blue.

I still wonder if I should have waited just one more moment longer–surely you were only sleeping?

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Categories: WYG Round 1, Reflection
Tags: I will always wonder about the color of your eyes, Adrian's birth, single mother by choice (SMC), photographs of Adrian

Posts written in response to prompts from Megan Devine’s Refuge in Grief writing program.
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