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Close up of Miranda and Adrian in the hospital after Adrian's birth. Both of their eyes are closed, and Miranda is holding Adrian's hand
Miranda and Adrian in the hospital (Mama Razzi Photography)

6 Feb 2018 – Regret

Your donor has brown eyes. So do I. I still wonder if yours would have been green or violet or newborn baby blue.

I still wonder if I should have waited just one more moment longer–surely you were only sleeping?

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