Miranda with Adrian's Elephant during Adrian's Memorial on the California coast (@saltwaterandclay)

22 July 2018; Life is Hard but I’m Trying

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Miranda Hernandez
July 22, 2018

Been going through a dark patch lately. I haven’t had the energy to write, or be as active on here as I’d like. But I wanted to share this photo, one of many my friend @saltwaterandclay sent yesterday, from Adrian’s memorial.

Things have been hard. Life in general is hard, and I’m just floating through it. But there is still beauty in this world. And for that one thing, I can feel grateful. For this one moment, I can breathe.

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