022 – Fri, Jul 21, 2017 at 12:18 AM
July 1, 2018
I say your name. That part is easy. I will forever love the sound of your name, the feel of it in my voice. What I can’t say is what happened to you.
comfort cub
021 – Thu, Jul 20, 2017 at 6:24 AM
July 1, 2018
I was afraid to kiss you, when they first brought you to me. I was afraid they would think I was strange.
Physical Body After Stillbirth
June 1, 2018
One of the least-talked-about aspects of stillbirth and pregnancy loss is that postpartum bodies still carry weight & produce milk, whether you have a living child or not. This is my journey with my postpartum body after stillbirth.
The First Days
June 1, 2018
After Adrian’s death, I came home from the hospital to a fully furnished nursery and without a living child. I wanted nothing more than to sleep for weeks, but I had to deal with milk, and funeral planning, and all the minutiae of being postpartum without a living child.
2 Feb 2018 – Elephant Onesies
February 2, 2018
I peeked under a bit. I wanted that smell. I wanted something stronger than the silence at his birth.
29 Jan 2018 – Grief
January 29, 2018
I used to think that grief was this sad time that followed the death of someone you loved. I never imagined it was really this new layer, this new identity. I never imagined the loss I was grieving would include the loss and rebirth of me.
