053 – Sun, Nov 5, 2017, 1:07 PM
November 1, 2018
One of the first photos I took with elephant. You should have been here.
Adrian’s Elephant on Instagram
- Adrian’s Elephant came to me on a diaper cake during my baby shower. After Adrian died, I carried his elephant with me. It seemed only natural to name my Instagram account (and later this website) after the same name. Posts here are reposted from the Adrian’s Elephant IG account.
050 – Sun, Oct 29, 2017, 1:00 PM
October 1, 2018
This is such a bittersweet day. I loved this house. I was so excited to share it, to share my whole world with you. You would have been four months old tomorrow. You died four months ago today.
048 – Sat, Oct 21, 2017, 8:37 PM
October 1, 2018
I’ve never been very worried about the things most people consider dangerous. I’ve deployed to war zones; I’ve gone scuba diving; I’ve shot handguns, rifles, bow and arrow.
22 June 2018, 9:01am; Memories about Adrian’s Due Date & Warning Signs That Were Missed
June 22, 2018
Adrian was due on 22 June 2017, but my midwives told me due dates were only guidelines. I wish they had been more concerned, especially considering the warning signs demonstrated during that last visit.
Physical Body After Stillbirth
June 1, 2018
One of the least-talked-about aspects of stillbirth and pregnancy loss is that postpartum bodies still carry weight & produce milk, whether you have a living child or not. This is my journey with my postpartum body after stillbirth.
Humor
January 22, 2018
I still feel disloyal sometimes, when I let myself laugh. I still feel, sometimes, like I’ve gone off script. As if there could *be* a script, an idealized way of dealing with loss…