The Worst Part
July 26, 2020
Hearing the news was definitely the worst part. “There is no heartbeat.” It broke me. I fell. And the “worst” pieces just kept building.
My Labor & Birth of Adrian
What is the Worst Sound in the World? (Quora)
February 18, 2020
You think, “Okay, this is normal; necessary. This is the process of millennia.” And you stop thinking, and then you moan; deep and low and primal. And your moaning is an outlet, and you surrender to it, deciding to become physical.
116 – Sat, Jun 30, 2018, some time in the morning
June 1, 2019
12 months ago, I was in labor. 12 months ago, you were preparing to be born. And this moment will always live in my memories.
054 – Mon, Nov 7, 2017, 8:10 PM
November 1, 2018
They left me alone. After you were born and we had taken pictures and they checked all my vitals and everything was as okay as it was ever going to be, they all packed their things and went away.
039 – Thu, Sep 28, 2017 at 4:16 PM
September 1, 2018
The doctor had to leave. She said she would be back, but after she left, I decided I couldn’t wait. I asked if the midwife was available. I don’t think she was supposed to be on until noon, but they called her, and she came.
034 – Mon, Sep 25, 2017 at 8:28 PM
September 1, 2018
I felt the water rushing out of me. I noticed with such a detached feeling that it was almost like peeing, except I had no control. Then I looked down, and saw that it was all blood. My first thought was this was proof something was wrong with me. My second was that maybe I was dying.
Adrian’s Birth Story
June 1, 2018
My water broke in a gushing flood. I understood then what women meant when they said it felt like peeing. I looked down, expecting to see water pooling on the tile floor. What I saw instead was blood.
2 Feb 2018 – Elephant Onesies
February 2, 2018
I peeked under a bit. I wanted that smell. I wanted something stronger than the silence at his birth.
