Hard Day
January 14, 2019
I had a hard day today. It happens sometimes. I get scared. There’s nothing wrong, not really. Just a wordless feeling. It’s easy to be overwhelmed when pregnant after loss.
Miranda’s Blog 2019
- Miranda’s Blog contains thoughts of a Bereaved Mother on Stillbirth, Grief, & Life After Loss (2019)
Waiting Rooms
January 13, 2019
I remember that first waiting room after the death of my son. I remember walking in, surrounded by people. They were pregnant and they were holding newborn babies, and I wanted to scream. And now I’m in a different place, and I want to say that I still see you.
8 January 2019; Two Years of Memories and Looking to the Future
January 8, 2019
Two years ago, I was happily pregnant and sadly naïve. I had no idea babies could die. Today, I am pregnant for the second time, eyes wide open and hopefully dreaming.
Grief Isn’t a Disease; That Quote from “The Interpreter”
January 5, 2019
I am frustrated because of course this isn’t true. I can’t imagine the author has any real knowledge of grief. But these are the things that inform our cultural attitudes.
1 January 2019
January 1, 2019
This has been a long year, and every time I think I’m okay, I find new heartbreak; new fears. I also find new joy. Because the day before I said goodbye to Amy Anne, I took a chance on new life, and I am both terrified & ecstatic to announce that this spring, Adrian James will become a big brother.