I AM a mother, even when my child is gone (Archives)

This May is my 6th Mothers Day. Thank you for remembering and honoring BOTH my children this year.

April 27, 2022

I was a mother from the moment I saw that second blue line. I have remained a mother, through my son’s death and his younger sister’s birth. And this May is my SIXTH mothers day.

Motherhood

May 9, 2021

I am the mother whose body swelled with pregnancy.
I am the mother who dreamed and wanted and planned.
I am the mother who left my heart in a small and curtained alcove room.
I am the mother who screamed and cried and begged.

Sharing about my deceased child doesn't mean that I'm stuck or broken or even that I am hurting. It simply means I am a parent.

Parenting in Loss; Sharing about my Deceased Child

June 18, 2020

Sharing about my deceased child doesn’t mean that I’m stuck or broken or even that I am hurting. It simply means I am a parent.

Mother's Day message from AdrianJamesHernandez.com

Mother’s Day 2020

May 10, 2020

To those with children in their arms, and those with children in their hearts: Happy Mothers Day. You are so loved.

Hollyhock in California (Miranda Hernandez)

116 – Sat, Jun 30, 2018, some time in the morning

June 1, 2019

12 months ago, I was in labor. 12 months ago, you were preparing to be born. And this moment will always live in my memories.

082 – Wed, Jan 24, 2018, 3:46 PM

January 1, 2019

I think about “moving forward”. I think about “trying again”. These words are hurtful. These words feel like I’m trying to replace you. It isn’t possible to replace you.

072 – Sat, Dec 30, 2017, 10:51 AM

December 1, 2018

You made me a mother, and my arms ache without you. So I carry your elephant, and I wish you were here, and I think about the crazy duality of this year.

26 Feb 2018 – The Nuclear Bomb

February 26, 2018

I’ve often said that those of us who have experienced tragedy live in a new layer of existence. It’s the thing that defines us now, that marks this transition to this separate world. And I almost said “different” there instead of “separate,” but this is another defining characteristic; because the only thing that is different is each of us. Because we are a world inside of a world, and we are the only ones who know.

Dandelions over Te Ti Bay, Waitanga, New Zealand (Miranda Hernandez)

I AM a Mother, Even after my Child is Gone

February 23, 2018

When I called the funeral home to ask for a certificate of cremation, they asked for my relation to the deceased. It was the first time I said the words, “I’m his mother.” It still hits me, sometimes, even today. I am a mother. I have a son. I AM a mother.

I AM a mother (Archives)

I AM a mother